HA!

Said the person on the next desk earlier. Well that is because I am knackered and my eyes hurt. This means I tend to get that squinty eyed gunslinger look going on whether I want it or not.

All I am trying to do is focus and not fall asleep. And basically see what is in front of me.

So I am not going to kill you all, its just the way I look OK?

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And I don't like it! Farr tooooooo cute and yarg for me.

That bit at the bottom of the page that shows you your friends recent media.

Due to some fuff up or other by a blogger I will not mention, all the pictures are of furry little squeeking guins!

Please people, put up some pictures of air crashes, accidents or ANYTHING! and save me from this, this frankly worrying optical fur malfunction.

My eyes feel like I have slept face down in a sandpit with them open.

I creak when I blink.

I think I may have to give up staring at people and trying to make their heads explode like in "Scanners"

Bugger.

I am not special, or better than anyone else on this planet. And I am certainly no worse than anyone else. But.

Times like yesterdays all day shindig make me think odd thoughts. I sit and look at the people around me and think “I have no idea what you people are for”

I don’t get it. I feel like I don’t fit in. Not just at business meetings where I really don’t fit in – Evidence, one training and conference centre full of suites and one pissed off looking me, dressed in combats, boots t-shirt, bomber jacket, all black. But at other places. At my daughter’s school panto, I looked at all the other parents and just thought, “Who are all these people? I have nothing in common with any of you.” Which was bollocks as we all had children at the same school but you know what I mean.

I do feel like I fit in sometimes, at my desk surrounded by the people I have worked with for three years, with bloggers, in rock clubs, with my friends, in guitar shops. I see the point then.

I just tend to look at everything around me and think “Why?”

Society is baffling, but I have no better ideas. Why do people behave the way they do? Christ knows.

Although I do like spending time on my own I am not a loner, I like the company of people I know but people in general are an odd and stupid bunch, with values and agendas that completely mystify me.

Or something.

Excuse me. I is all phylosofoficalamist today.