Ahem.

Well I tried.

Bank holiday boredom struck so I have been trying to play each guitar I have for at least half an hour.

Good plan but I forgot how much heat a Marshall Amp puts out!

So after a couple of hours it was getting way too hot in here so I had to keep going and getting a cold drink. Just to cool off you understand.

still the hot valves won and I abandoned the room to let it cool down. What did I do to cool off - went and cooked a roast dinner!

Yeah that helped.

So now I am going to haul myself up on the sofa and (with another cold drink in hand) watch some rubbish on E4 about the worlds best actors. Yes, another lazy bit of TV - get a load of talking head lovies in to vote for the best actor in the world and compile a chart.

It cant be that good, I heard Robert Wagners name mentioned.

Anyway.

Thats' how I am going to waste the last part of the bank holiday.

Talk to you all tomorrow maybe.

I wish I did not feel so stupid and unable to help some people I care about. I just know I will never understand or be able to help no matter how much I want to.

I understand a lot of other things. Other problems people have had or are having as I have some understanding of them myself.

Makes you feel totally usless and patronising and infefectual and totally fucking stupid.

But I still want to help.

As it is wet and the nipper is getting wrestles, Jo has rummaged around in the spare room and found something to amuse Sarah with.

Unfortunatley its one of those small keyboard things you could wear round your neck like a guitar, (which Jo used to play in a band we were in) and Sarah and Jo are now running through all the sounds available and making a jolly racket in the other room.

Aslo lurking up behind the keyboard was something else that used to be big in the 80s' Jo's old pair of thigh length leather boots with the turn down bit at the top - very piratey.

Hmm, may have to ask her to try them on again later.

ahem.

It is grey and wet, typical Bank holiday Monday weather - And Sarah and I have just watched a crap Dynosaur movie on the telly "The Land that Time Forgot" starring Troy Doug Mclure.

Now apparently there is "Quo Vadis" - a biblical epic in case you don't know - showing on BBC 2 for most of the rest of the afternoon, so the bank holiday is finally showing its true colours.

All we need is some Bond and it would be "perfect"....

Later I am going to be cooking a proper Roast beef dinner for us, as Jo and I realised we have not done one for ages. I get a chance to make my wonderful Yorkshire Puddings, and stuff my face with beef when I am supposed to be carving.

I was even thinking of clearing some of the mess out of the music room, there are discarded string packets, old guitar magazines and CDs' all over the place.

Hmmmm, maybe not.